A Meaningful Day for Me

(You don't have to watch that video. I couldn't find one of Shawn Colvin performing the song on her own.)

One small year
It's been an eternity
It's taken all of me to get here
Through this one small year

Today is a very meaningful day for me.  One year ago, I took my first yoga class at Chris Gates Tae Kwon Do Health Center, which turned out to be the first step down the road that finally ended my chronic pain experience, and began a new journey into regaining my health and well-being.

One year.

In the past year, I've learned to walk again without pain. I've lost 25 pounds, gone off of my lobotomizing anti-depressants, stopped drinking alcohol, revived my freelance writing career, and not had a single migraine headache. Best of all, I've regained my former active role in our family.

If it were only that one thing alone, I would be inexpressibly grateful. To have all of this other bounty is just...humbling and exalting and uplifting and seems to require a larger response than just feeling this enormous gratitude in every fiber of my being.

I try not to take it for granted. When I pulled into the parking lot at the girls' school for their Halloween parade on Monday, I parked as far away as I could and I breathed a sincere prayer of thanks for the ability to walk into the school to see my kids. It was such a short time ago that I couldn't do that.

When I get ready for bed at night, if it has been a pain-free day (and I have more of them now than I have days with pain,) I try to recognize it and to acknowledge the millions of people out there who have no end to their suffering.  I wish I could convey to them that I know how hopeless they feel.  I wish I could give them hope that it will get better.

Today, as you go about your day, will you do me a favor? Will you notice some of the steps you take without thinking? Will you take a moment to appreciate the things you can do by virtue of your mobility? Will you spare some mindful sympathy for those who are denied this privilege, and send some healing thoughts to those who live with chronic pain?

Namaste, y'all.


Unknown said…
I'm happy for you!
TheOneTrueSue said…
This makes me so happy to hear. Yes. today I will be grateful for mobility and lack of pain. Thanks Barb.
Lynn said…
When the man I love was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer earlier this year, I started getting massages. I was led to a woman who is deeply gifted, and tonight we were both delighted at how far I have come in a few months. I made some dietary changes in September, and those have helped as well. I give thanks, often, that I do not need special license plates or a hangtag on my rearview mirror, that the trigger points have been decimated, that my range of motion has increased, that I am now average six hours of sleep per night, rather than five. I am so blessed, and I have been pleased and touched to read of your progress over the years I have "known" you.
tanita✿davis said…
You continue to bless and inspire. Seriously.
So very, very pleased for you.

Walk on, sister-girl. And the rest of us will walk mindfully today for you as well.
Donna said…
It is amazing how having limited mobility, or caring for someone who has, will make your ever grateful for the mobility you have. I am thankful that God has given us the strength we need each day. Barb, thank you for your reminder that each day is a gift.
Shaatzie said…
One of your best posts! Keep on healing, because your whole family (and posting friends) heal with you. One step for womankind and all that.

Keep it up!
Karen said…
Aww, you made me cry. Happy tears, though. Wonderful words.
bethany said…
so very very glad! and what a great reminder to think of the shoes i don't have to fill, and the blessedness of the ones I do get to walk in.