I Want to Write of Joyful Things

I am sitting here bursting with things to write about. Ana (12) and I spent a day in New York City shopping with some favorite people yesterday. My book is coming along. There are signs of spring everywhere. My husband bought a towel --yes, singular. I have things to tell you!

Unfortunately, I won't be writing to you about them today because while walking all around shops in NYC yesterday and shopping for clothes and trying on silly hats, I overdid it in a big way on my poor foot. Today I am on the couch, taking painkillers and waiting for this soul-crushing, creativity-zapping HUMORLESS pain to subside.

You know, pain is a funny animal. Or, really, I guess humans are funny animals with regard to pain. Because despite having spent the better part of a year living with this chronic, excruciating pain, I just kind of forgot how bad it is. I've been beating myself up lately for not having accomplished more during my enforced couch arrest -- why DIDN'T I knit an afghan or write three novels or develop an entirely new way of exercising without actually having to GET UP?

Now I remember why I didn't get anything done.

Because right now? I can't even knit. I tried to get up and fold a load of laundry and, y'all, I just could not do it. The pain is so loud and of such suckitudinal* hugeness that all I can do is sit here and wish it would go away. Just try to endure it; try to outlast it. Such a freaking waste of time and energy.

I guess a big difference between the Lost Year and today is that I have faith that if I stay off of my foot today, it will be better tomorrow. I didn't have that faith back then because we didn't have an answer as to why I was in so much pain to begin with.

So, here, look at the pretty kitties, all snuggled up together.
I'll see you tomorrow.

* Why, yes, I made up a word. YOU WANNA MAKE SOMETHING OF THAT??

Comments

knittergran said…
I hope the pain is soon gone---and isn't it amazing how much time cats can sleep!
Ann in NJ said…
I love that title. I may borrow it sometime, because it is wonderful.

You picked a good day to hang on the couch. I'm not in pain and I still wanted to just sit all day with this grey blech.
Susan said…
I'm so sorry your foot is in pain again. I know pain too so I understand when you say you can't accomplish much of anything while dealing with pain.
Kiss of the Spiderwoman has a good line pertaining to what you said - something like "When you are happy, you don't believe you'll ever be unhappy again" Applies to being in pain or sick also!
Suna said…
I will be thinking of you and hoping for happy foot so you can write of happy things!
Tiny Tyrant said…
Precious sleeping kittehs. They sure help make most things endurable. Puppies work well for that too.

Take it easy. Feel better.
kim said…
Well, you'll always have New York.... Here's hoping that tomorrow is a much better day for you. x
kitmf said…
I hope you feel completely better tomorrow. We can wait until then for the joyful thoughts.
kitmf said…
I hope you feel completely better tomorrow. We can wait until then for the joyful thoughts.
Murr Brewster said…
I hope you're on the mend. (Check out P. Egoscue's Pain Free.) But when I'm hungry I can't imagine being not; when I'm cold I can't imagine hot; about the best that can be said is OH BOY I sure do live in the moment. That's supposed to be good, right?
Lynn said…
And yet you left such a lovely comment on The Harlot's post. That, my dear, is grace.
Anonymous said…
Oh Barb - bless your heart! Having just had the joy-sucking pain of a kidney stone, I can emphasize with how miserable you are. Cuddle the kitties or savor some chocolate, whatever it takes to help you make it 'til it's better. Hugs, MamaBeth in Shreveport
ccr in MA said…
Just wanted to say that I hope you're feeling better--and if you're not, I hope you are soon! Take care of yourself.
Bullwinkle said…
Since I am reading in reverse chronological order, and since you made me LOL the first two posts, I shall assume you are better :)

Thanks for posting - it reminds me that I don't suck for not getting anything done when I've had a headache for a year. Seriously.